and so marks the time of new beginnings...? we're more than past the half way mark of the year now and its been a good year so far. So what is new, we've just come back from a week at the snow. It was a fantastic time, fresh snow fell on the first night, but was sunny days after that. The ground was patchy but the kids had fund nonetheless and we're all looking forward to next year already.
How is the house building going? We've been approved in part! The certifier has reviewed the house plans and says all is ok, but now we're just waiting on the tree removal approval which the certifier needs before finalising the CDC but we're on our way! Demolition quotes are being sourced, the pool approval has also come through and we've also picked our exterior colours. We're going with a darker brick with light grout and whitish window frames. I'm quite happy with it. We'll soon be planning the kitchen and might be a good idea to talk to a landscaper as well but not sure if we'll actually do that.
Had a significant event happen to me actually in July. I got pregnant. Not planned. Mixed emotions. Before it was confirmed, my first reaction was that I would have it, was even planning names for a boy. Then reality hit, starting again with a new baby, nearing 40, quite comfortable with things at the moment. Told my husband, he also had mixed emotions. Got the pregnancy test, used it, waited for the result. Positive. Blast it. We both felt like teenagers with an unwanted pregnancy. We remembered when conception happened. It was a day or so after my period. We assumed it would be safe. Guess we were wrong. I had a cry. Didn't really want it. Neither did he. I looked up medical abortions and there was a place nearby at work. Booked myself in and after consultation, was told I was suitable for it if I wanted it. Took the tablet, some minor bleeding but nothing major. Just felt nauseous and feverish during the first two hours of taking the tablets. Was frustrated. Went back for second visit and was given another round of tablets and was reminded that I had been informed it might not work and also might not happen in the first week. Second round produced a lot more bleeding as was expected. Third visit proved that abortion was successful. All done in two weeks. Felt so easy, too easy. But no regrets. Do I think about the baby that could have been. Yes. Do I regret it? Not yet. Only my husband and mother know. My mother was very supportive. Not comfortable letting any friends know, just seems too controversial.
His name would have been Jesse.
